Sears, Just like the Store...: Just a Note...

I must say first sorry for not blogging for the last 2 months.

Now....

Things of course are not the same this year. With you gone I am different.

How am I?? Well that question is kind of repetitive really. I am only as good as the day I am having. If the kids are good then I am having pretty good day. If Brittany is not being an obnoxious 14 year old girl, the day is good.(really good). When I get a lot done in the house then I am having an accomplished day.

When the nights are looonnnggg and sleepless then of course the day is even longer. Then you have the introduction of cranky and moody. Those days nobody appreciates. (not even me) Usually the days are less then exciting. I don't do much really, honestly.

Here goes..

My Day by Ally Sears

Grade 28 God's College of Humilty

I wake (if I have slept) up at 6:30 to get Brittany up for school.

6:45 I wake Brittany up again....(you know how she is)

6:55 I holler down stairs to make sure she is up. (again, I know)

7:15 I am up to dress the Littles and follow Brittany around to say things like...Did you eat?

Did you wash your face? Did you make your lunch? Do you have your homework? No Brittany you may not watch tv while you get ready for school. Where are your shoes? Why is the TV on? Where did Lillie go? What is the dog eating?

7:45 Please get in the van so we can go to school...Where are your shoes and why aren't they on your feet?

Stop yelling at your sister, Don't talk to your brother that way.

8:20 Drop Brittany off at school.

8:45-9:00 Return home. Just get out of the car, Wyatt we are not going to Toys r us.

9:00-10:00 Enjoy (usually)a nice breakfast with the Littles and feed the dogs (Wyatt's Chore)

10:00- 11:45ish School with Littles

11:45 Crafts with Littles

12:30 Lunch (cleaning as I try to eat)

1:00-2:00 Free time for all three of us (Mine and kids chores as well)

2:00 Leave to pick up Brittany from school (twins sleep on the way there and back)

3:00 Home again

4:00 to 4:30 ish Start dinner if it is an oven thing if not start at 5:00

5:30 Dinner (really 5:30-5:45-6pm ish)

Brittany cleans up

Cleaning

bath and showers

Cleaning (not tonight btw)

relax

Seems like it would be a pretty boring day huh?! I love school and craft time. I love being home with the Littles, I love doing projects in the house, I don't love when my back hurts but it makes me appreciate life that much more.

I hate (yes I am a hater)not having you here. I feel kinda weird sometimes, I say weird because it is a new feeling for me. Sometimes I think you are gonna come home from work (not a lot but sometimes), I think those moments happen when I am truly caught off guard. I will be making dinner and just for a second I expect you to walk in and say.."Hey, Baby. How was your day?"

I get soooo mad at you a lot. How could you be gone? Weird!!

Most of my days are tearless (really) again weird. You would think I would cry all the time. I do have what I think is an explanation.

GOD'S EMBRACE, GOD'S GRACE, GOD'S LOVE. (not smart comments you) God is the only one who TRULY gets it. He knows. That is why I think that I am okay. You may not believe me but you of all people know that I really trust that Father of mine to make it all okay. (even when it seems like it's not)

Dude, I love him!! He is an Awesome God, I wouldn't have made it till now without him. So my love remember this...YOU DID LEAVE US IN GREAT HANDS!!

Now for Family...here are some pics of the kids. Love you all!