Just a Note...

I must say first sorry for not blogging for the last 2 months.

Now....

Things of course are not the same this year. With you gone I am different.

How am I?? Well that question is kind of repetitive really. I am only as good as the day I am having. If the kids are good then I am having pretty good day. If Brittany is not being an obnoxious 14 year old girl, the day is good.(really good). When I get a lot done in the house then I am having an accomplished day.

When the nights are looonnnggg and sleepless then of course the day is even longer. Then you have the introduction of cranky and moody. Those days nobody appreciates. (not even me) Usually the days are less then exciting. I don't do much really, honestly.

Here goes..

My Day by Ally Sears

Grade 28 God's College of Humilty

I wake (if I have slept) up at 6:30 to get Brittany up for school.

6:45 I wake Brittany up again....(you know how she is)

6:55 I holler down stairs to make sure she is up. (again, I know)

7:15 I am up to dress the Littles and follow Brittany around to say things like...Did you eat?

Did you wash your face? Did you make your lunch? Do you have your homework? No Brittany you may not watch tv while you get ready for school. Where are your shoes? Why is the TV on? Where did Lillie go? What is the dog eating?

7:45 Please get in the van so we can go to school...Where are your shoes and why aren't they on your feet?

Stop yelling at your sister, Don't talk to your brother that way.

8:20 Drop Brittany off at school.

8:45-9:00 Return home. Just get out of the car, Wyatt we are not going to Toys r us.

9:00-10:00 Enjoy (usually)a nice breakfast with the Littles and feed the dogs (Wyatt's Chore)

10:00- 11:45ish School with Littles

11:45 Crafts with Littles

12:30 Lunch (cleaning as I try to eat)

1:00-2:00 Free time for all three of us (Mine and kids chores as well)

2:00 Leave to pick up Brittany from school (twins sleep on the way there and back)

3:00 Home again

4:00 to 4:30 ish Start dinner if it is an oven thing if not start at 5:00

5:30 Dinner (really 5:30-5:45-6pm ish)

Brittany cleans up

Cleaning

bath and showers

Cleaning (not tonight btw)

relax

Seems like it would be a pretty boring day huh?! I love school and craft time. I love being home with the Littles, I love doing projects in the house, I don't love when my back hurts but it makes me appreciate life that much more.

I hate (yes I am a hater)not having you here. I feel kinda weird sometimes, I say weird because it is a new feeling for me. Sometimes I think you are gonna come home from work (not a lot but sometimes), I think those moments happen when I am truly caught off guard. I will be making dinner and just for a second I expect you to walk in and say.."Hey, Baby. How was your day?"

I get soooo mad at you a lot. How could you be gone? Weird!!

Most of my days are tearless (really) again weird. You would think I would cry all the time. I do have what I think is an explanation.

GOD'S EMBRACE, GOD'S GRACE, GOD'S LOVE. (not smart comments you) God is the only one who TRULY gets it. He knows. That is why I think that I am okay. You may not believe me but you of all people know that I really trust that Father of mine to make it all okay. (even when it seems like it's not)

Dude, I love him!! He is an Awesome God, I wouldn't have made it till now without him. So my love remember this...YOU DID LEAVE US IN GREAT HANDS!!

Now for Family...here are some pics of the kids. Love you all!

Wyatt and Lillian's 4th birthday

Me

Brittany (oh my goodness)

Littles

DISNEY ON ICE!!!!

CLICK ON THE PICS TO ENLARGE:

Wanna know something Cool!!!

I just had the best little conversation with my cousin, Carla. She is really a cool person that I never really got to know much about. I hope it works out to have her and Adam come for a visit early next year.

Super excited!!

My Cool Bee

LOOOK

GranDonal and Wyatt Coloring!!!!

This was the sweetest thing I have seen in a long time. What love was at that table.

-Today, I miss you!

Okay, How could you "not" miss that!!!

When we let Brittany out. Isn't she pretty!!!!

Wyatt wanted to take this one....I have no idea what we are doing here.

Wyatt's New Haircut

Hello all

Wanted to post some new pics of Wyatt. My SON went through 2 different books to find a haircut he wanted. Wyatt wanted a cut that looked like his Daddy.

So that is what he got...Check it out!!!

Lillian were you in sisters makeup???

Blogging is really just hard......explanation below.

Okay, I started this blog at the request of my dear husband. He wanted to keep people informed about our children and family. Getting on it makes me cry. I am sorry I haven't undated it but I just cry.

Here is some pictures of the after of the house remodel.

And some recent pictures of the kids.

I promise to be funny another day just not today.

Love you all

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More pictures of my beloved!!

1st you have my Favorite 

2nd He is just too cute

Are we not a cute couple!!!

Adorable

OH my GOODNESS....The Eyes just melted me and he knew it. Total power over me.

I love you, Baby!!

Love...

It seems to me that Love is easier than some may think, Then again.....

I love my God, I love my husband, I love my kids, my family, even my dog......

Easy right?! I think so or thought so.

Now Love is HARD.  Not hard to love just hard 

It is still easy to love everyone.  It is hard to love and not have. I really have no explanation for the feeling....like nothing I have ever felt.

Ya know I may not have always seen eye to eye with love but love was ALWAYS love.

Love always loved back, even when love was not happy, even when love did not agree with me, Love was always IN LOVE. 

And I am IN LOVE with LOVE. 

Well that is enough of that.  All of this may not make sense to anyone but me and that is perfectly ok. I do ask one thing.....PLEASE don't read anything into it. It is what it is and that is all that it is. 

God I just thank you for being my rock. as this song I heard said......

LORD, Give me a revelation, show me what to do........cause I am NOTHING without you!! AMEN

In Loving Memory!

I want to always remember......

As most of you know...Brenton passed away Tuesday March 31, 2009.  I just wanted to post a few great pictures of happy times for all to see.

My husband was a very different kind of person.  Some people may not have understood him but he was truly an amazing person.  Brenton was such an intelligent person to be around.  I learned so much about computers, philosophy, food, history,  SO much.  He was always willing to teach me or anybody else anything he knew.  He loved to share what he knew. Brenton loved loved loved his kids.  He and Wyatt were starting to spend that Father/Son time you hear of. They played video games, computer games and anything Brenton would let him in on.  He loved to sit with Wyatt and watch Transformers, Batman (lovingly pronounced "Fat man"), and Planet heroes.  He loved his son!

He loved his daughters too.  Brittany was his princess and he worried about her daily. He wasSO focused on her education. He wanted only the best for her and sometimes it was aggravating for all. He really focused a lot on her, He just saw SO much potential in Brittany and just knew she was going to do great things.  Lillian was his baby girl. He wanted so much to have a great relationship with her. She loved to watch shows with her Dad. She loved to play with him.  He was starting to love giving them a bath and play for sooo long with the tub toys.  

Brenton and I strived to teach our children manners.  He wanted people to see that his children were respectful.  I think he did a good job.  

I will add...Brenton, My Husband, My Best Friend, truly loved me. He told me not to long ago that "I love you more than Coffee"  If anyone knows Brenton that meant ALOT.   I love my husband and will continue to love him for all of my days.

thank you Lord for giving him to me for the time that you did.  I pray today that He gives you all peace through this time and gives you all the best memories that you have of Brenton G. Sears.

He will be remembered here with the most love and respect that 

We love you, My beloved.