Not meant for pity sake Just for Prayer.

Learning to trust in you, DAILY

I often wonder what gets me through each sleepless night to exhausted day...

This years has proven to be a long trial for me. Let me run it down.

1. We lost my Grandma from a long battle with COPD and Emphesema (sp) Sept 2007

2. Brenton and Heather's Dad Leon a month later from Pancreatic Cancer Oct 2007

3. Dec 2008 we lost Papa Akins from a long suffering battle with cancer.

4. Then it happened I lost my Best Friend, My Husband, My companion.

Brenton left us March 31, 2009

5. We lost Reilly (my Cousin) May 7, 2009.

6. We lost my Grandpa from Cancer October 21, 2009

7. March 31, 2010 it has been a year since Brenton has left.

8. We remember Reilly on May 7, 2010

9. September 2, 2010 we lose my Great Uncle Bernie to years of sickness.

10. My Step Father-in-Law Donal...Kids GranDonal is dying..they give him about 3 more days if that.

11. Wednesday 22nd Heather and I have to sit in front of lawyers and discuss things that out me in depair. I don't want to remember...I don't want to think of such things.

What really gets me about everything ....GOD sure loves my family.

What a Rock he is for us all. Could you imagine a world without him, I CAN'T. I don't want to.

I believe from Faith comes Strength. Looking back all I wanna do is lay my face on the ground and Thank Him so much for his Love for me. How could anyone love such a wretched sinner as I am, but he does so much.

So the next time you catch me feeling sorry for myself and making it all about my sadness....remind me just how much He loves me.

The introduction of 2010

Wow! Really.

I have a hard time believing that I am looking at 2010. Well let's look at it, What is to come.

1. I have prayed, prayed some more and came to a conclusion. Some of you may not understand my decision and that is all good. We will be staying in the house. (if you need explanation, call me)

2. With the decision in #1 made known....I am re-doing the kitchen. (CHEAP) New counters, new paint, new backsplash and I would really like a over the stove microwave but it will have to wait.

3. I am going to paint my tray ceiling in the bedroom.

4. I am going to update all of the knobs and things that are now brass.

5. I am going to do this CHEAP (not cheap stuff)

I am going to do these things over time so as not to spend a lot of money. I am VERY open to any suggestions that anyone might have.